It would have been in the late Fall of 1983, years ago and just yesterday. These college juniors had started dating again. The first time was a year before and it didn’t go so well. That’s a story for another time. But after a year of growing up and becoming friends they thought they just might try it again. It was different.
After a couple of months of hanging out, dating a bit, getting chummy and feeling like this was more than just a fun little romance, the young man wanted to express the depth of his feelings. So he arranged an evening, pulling out all the stops. He had it figured out and she was willing to go along for the ride. It was dinner at the Magic Pan, a crepe restaurant in downtown Chicago. Without Uber, they bundled up and walked the mile to the restaurant hand in hand. They had a nice dinner and then walked toward Water Tower Place. There he planned to take her on a ride they had admired and talked about before – a horse-drawn carriage. Somewhere along the way, he bought her some flowers – roses, I believe. As they walked toward the carriages, it was cold, so they chose one with the top up. After all, it was alone-time he was looking for. This was going to be a big night.
She seemed happy and a bit impressed with every gesture. And he was proud, but nervous. They rode a while in quiet, with his arm around her, keeping her protected from the cold nip of the Fall night. As the horses clippity-clopped on the city street, he started to stammer. This was it, the reason for the evening. His words were something like, “Kris, the reason for tonight i-i-is, I wanted to t-t-tell you something. She asked, “What is it?” He said, “Well, I wanted you to know, I love you.” Ta-da! (play music to crescendo!) It all led to this! The dinner, the flowers, the 2 mile stroll, the carriage ride! He could breathe again.
And then there were these two words, that felt like the stereo needle being dragged across your favorite vinyl album (kids, ask your parents). It was two words when he expected 3, or maybe 4. Two words that made me think about his future… forever. Two words that would make him examine the depths of his own heart, his emotions and the strength of his will. These two words peeled back any romantic veneer that may have been put on the evening. These two words formed as a question that made him, for an instant and for a life-time, question the nature of his love. “Do you?,” she asked.
“I love you” should bring a response of, “I love you too!” But not, “Do you?” Who asks, “Do you?” She did. I knew instantly what she was asking. She was asking if I was ready to change my life? She wanted to know if this was an attempt to impress, or if this was a commitment. Was this an evening, an event, a season, or a life I wanted?
Realizing exactly what she was asking, I was quiet for a moment and then I said, “Yes, I do love you.” That is what I wanted. She was the one I wanted to give myself to. She was the one I would change my life for. When she was sure I knew what I was saying to her, she squeezed my arm and said, “I love you too.”
That was a big night that helped set the direction of a relationship that has lasted for 35+ years. How grateful I am that she asked me that question. I don’t know that it really changed how I felt, or that it changed the commitment I was ready to make. But it clarified the decision we were making. It cut through the fluff and laid a foundation that has anchored our lives together ever since.
So often, there are correlations in our human relationships and our relationship with Christ. When I come to Jesus needy and longing. And he gives me his joy. He gives me his love. He forgives me my sin. It is easy to say, “Oh, Jesus I love you!” We sing the songs, we read the warm passages of Scripture, we hug the people around us. We feel it, “Jesus, I love you.” I hear those two words in my spirit, “Do you?” How could he ask? He asks for us. We need to hear his question. Are you ready to change your life? Is this love a commitment or just a feeling? Is this an experience, a moment, a season, or is it a life that you want? Only you can answer the question for yourself. If you answer his question by saying, “Yes Lord, I love you.” It will set the foundation for a journey you couldn’t create on your own.
By all means, tell Jesus you love him because he does love you and he always has. Just remember what you’re saying.
Thank you Kris, for asking me that question! I love you… yes I do!